tree above the lake

carved in my fate

diamonds, gold, & custom plates

above set in stone

etched in bare bone

me & you, will never be alone

It was a bright day

Misfortune made it dim

Dim to a blur

Blur to a gin

Gin to a grin

Grin to a frown

I hear her words

It doesn’t make a sound

My two cents

Let’s cut ties

We both know

It ain’t worth the lies

Words fell on deaf ears

“You trying to get a rise?

We can still be friends.”

ha Surprise, surprise

Through all that i’ve been through

I thought I would’ve been tougher

Who would’ve known this love would make me suffer

No point in arguing

It’s a double edged sword

You should know everything aside

You meant the whole world

Don’t bother calling tonight

I’d rather be in bed

Mind full of shattered dreams

and shit you’ve said

Hello to a new you

Goodbye promises i’ve kept

The shoulder to cry on 

And boundaries i’ve leapt

Trying to find the words to say

Sadly, only one saying is true

The least you can say,

Is all you can do.

shoot. couldnt pick a better place to stash it

tried to chuck it out, at times, just to snatch it

store it in monetary items, later i’d cash it

still tore me down, cut me up like a hatchet

had a race with time, to see who was fastest

who am i kidding, keepin still through the madness

but i digress, these backs just keep flashing

where did i leave it, my thoughts keep clashing

my left my right over my shoulder i keep looking

checked the shoeboxes drawers and under my bed

in a room thats just white black and blue

how is it so hard

to find something red

safety deposit box, blew, and dustballs fled

handwritten letters and mixtapes i’d sent

temple scratching, tired, shapes outta bent

further i searched, less i’d achieved

nothing more, midnight oil burnt clean

so hard to find something i’d once seen

in plain sight, im sure id seen it somewhere

every nook and cranny

i was so sure of the love that was there

Can you blame me

I saw it

I went for it

If I changed me

Would it

Make a diff

Stationary

Miles away

Didn’t plan

This trip

This feeling I swear

I’ve been trying

To flip

Knowing I can’t succeed

But just

Can’t quit

Should I cop my keys

Bounce, Split

Should’ve taken heed

Well, shit

Easier said than done

Swear trying not to run

Chasing pavements

My form of fun

This burns deep

Hot like the sun

She cold as hell

Laces done

Still tripped and fell

And there I go

Dya see me? Dya see me?

Well

My mind universal

You conveyed the stars

No wonder wherever I be

There you are..

There you are.

I remember when you were everything

When you were every absolute reason

You shot me for a loop, elastic to a sling

Oh the trials and tribulations time brings

Oh the silly things, we used to do

Used to embrace the whole world

Seems i’ve been played the fool

Isn’t it funny

How you think you learnt the first time

When really

You gotta deal with the worst times

Look at my clock and it’s time we part

Multiplies like a math test

Times were just as hard

Time and time again

I fall back on rhyme

I blame the height on the climb

Didn’t see the signs, so much to chase

Gotta stop looking

Maybe then i’d find

What i’m looking for

Cause it seems like same shit different day

Change in me seen, but not to my dismay

I waited, broke my mold

Stopped fallin back on prospects not approved

De-ja vu’s, blocked those views

Reminiscent minds, i just can’t do

Never bout what im running from

But what im running to

(And im running too)

My new mindset assigned

My heart devoted, not too easy to decline

My code, don’t ever ever cross that line

Busted balls for a girl

Not even worth it

My mistake a glance turned to a flirt

Furthermore a hurting, for sure then

A wall has been built

I sit waiting watching from the guard tower

Raybans, a smoke, and my face is sour

Stopwatch swinging from my arm

Used to stop on that hour

This king’s castle’s lights out

Waiting for a new queen

Hopes aiming for her to turn on, the power.

4 in the morning

Your tossing and turning

I’m thinking up the words to send you to dreamland yawning

Cause ms.independent still needs her rest

Proper shut eye plus routine coffee

Keeps you at your best

Counting sheep

Hiding under covers 3 layers deep

You stay

Restless

Even past phone conversations, and 21 questions

Perhaps i should be where you are

Help you blink away the wake

Hold you close to my chest

Keep each other warm and wait

We could forget bout our problems

The Past, Present, and Far Ahead

Hold tight under the stars

Covered from shadows in your bed

Music, Movies, And late night talks

A fence, green pastures

And sheep in flocks

Like many others

Couldn’t count on them

I stayed ahead of the herd

So you could count

On me

The moon’s above

While we’re down-to-earth

Listening to the light, common

And you girl, are something more than ordinary

Deny it

Tell me to shut up

But I don’t lie

If I ever do

Hope it’s beside you

So I can sing a proper lullaby

I’d give her a shout late nights

Talkin til the A.M.

Since day one this spark had ignited a flame

Me and you know we wouldn’t ever be the same

I’d risk our friendship just to see that you’d never change

And what you see now page by page

Is a process in itself day by day

Cause now i can’t seem to write bout anything else

Whether it be current affairs

Or the brand of my belt

And i’m sorry i can’t help

Expressing these feelings that i’ve felt

So just

Lock me up and throw away the key

Ironically

I can no longer cage in

This heart on my sleeve

was it about what you dared to wear

or that you dared to stare

you walking out on us

still seems so unclear

try to cover it all up

the fabric was sheer

merely i considered you near me

but surely you weren’t my dear

and they say that love is blind

but in this case

it’s your designer shades

blocking out the sunshine

so inclined

to be all about the wrong things

the 5 stack clutch bags and one night flings

yeah you’ve made your life all about diamonds and rings

it’s no wonder you’ve turned so cold

your numb and can’t feel the stings

must be thinking this lifestyle

ain’t attached by no strings

but you gotta see there being some cost for all those free drinks

come on think

this is me

telling ya i don’t wanna see ya sink

down the drain

i wanna obtain

i wanna attain

the heart i knew before all this

too bad

it’s locked up penthouse suite

in the ritz